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What motivates....

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What indeed. Many things motivate me. I get short term satisfaction by doing my best in my projects and tasks and I get long term satisfaction in doing my best in my work life, love life, family life and individual life. There is never really a reason in my opinion to not do your best... would you ever want to do your worst?

I guess this one I'll have to mull over.

Venting

Without going into specifics - these last two weeks can easily be considered one of the worse of my year. Between a friends death and conflict in my relationship, I find myself lost and unmotivated. I'm finding myself falling into a rut I had long ago climbed out of.

My motivation to do anything is so non-existent it's left papers on the floor hallway, folded laundry on the couch, junk not put away and dirty dishes in the sink. When I get home... I don't want to deal with it, but just change my clothes and toss them on the bed frame, get under the covers and go to bed... and that's basically all I've done in 2 weeks. I'm ashamed to say it... but I'm a mess.

I looked around my livingroom and thought... omg someone will call that hoarder show on me... but I realize, I'm not a hoarder, I'm just a mess... a very big mess.

I started the gym and somehow I gained weight... and not the good muscle kind.

I have so much in my head and none of it is good... stupid people... why do they betray you and leave you lost. It sucks.

Best Man Gift

We have talked about it... and have remained stumped. What do you get your best man... especially one that tends to buy what he wants when he wants it? We want it to be heartfelt but not mushy. We want it to be useful and not just a piece to collect dust. We want it to be good.

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I thought this money clip said it all... it's all true and I think it's something our best man has only recently come to fully embrace.... and I have to say - I love that about him! I also love that he's been there for me when I began to fully understand what it is I want out of life and how what I want is nothing that my parents or his wanted for me... instead it's a meaningful life filled with love, respect and spirituality. It's not a career driven, money hungry life that tends to define success in the big city in current times. I don't think this gift would cut it - but I do think it would be a nice little add on.

We shall see what the FH thinks... because he never seems to agree with me.

Lies... how appropriate

After being lied to... I feel broken. I thought it was ironic... or coincidence that today the Thought Question is:source

So ... when was the last time you lied?? And how many lies did you have to say after to cover up that lie?

It's funny right... telling the truth is just easier than a lie. Not just is telling the truth admirable but telling the truth usually arrives at the best outcome.

Even the smallest lies and cause the most hurt. Even the smallest lies can create a world of mistrust. Even the smallest lies and cause insecurity. Even the smallest lies and feed feelings of betrayal, hurt and hate.

I've been brought up in a house with many secrets but was told to never lie. It was ironic... yes, but it was the truth. Lying only breeds hate and it only creates a mess where things are good. Why ruin a good thing with lies? My entire life, I've only hoped to be spoken to with words of truth, even if they were words that would hurt. The truth, no matter how harsh, are always recoverable... but being told a lie and then still finding out the truth... you suffer twice.

Some wise words:

Those who think it is permissible to tell white lies soon grow color-blind. ~Austin O'Malley

Every act of dishonesty has at least two victims: the one we think of as the victim, and the perpetrator as well. Each little dishonesty makes another little rotten spot somewhere in the perpetrator's psyche. ~Lesley Conger

Who lies for you will lie against you. ~Bosnian Proverb

Make yourself an honest man, and then you may be sure there is one less rascal in the world. ~Thomas Carlyle

A half truth is a whole lie. ~Yiddish Proverb

A lie has speed, but truth has endurance. ~Edgar J. Mohn

When you stretch the truth, watch out for the snapback. ~Bill Copeland

Truth is the most valuable thing we have, so I try to conserve it. ~Mark Twain

Cherish the friend who tells you a harsh truth, wanting ten times more to tell you a loving lie. ~Robert Brault

The cruelest lies are often told in silence. ~Adlai Stevenson

What do you think...

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This question is a good one... maybe only because it has so many answers and when something like this has so many answers... you reflect. You reflect in all you are waiting for and reevaluate whether or not it is all worth it.

So here is a quick list... of random thoughts that came to mind:

• Paul goodness knows I've waiting a long time to be with him... almost 6 years of long distance back and forth and unknowns and still going. I'll still wait and it will all be worth it.
• Children I am not ready yet and neither is Paul but we are close. I'd never rush into having a family b/c of a feeling of losing time or reaching my expire date
• Not much else.... I think people shouldn't sit and wait... if you want to improve your life... begin working at it now. There is no way to change your world without action.

Words can only take you so far... only inches from where you stand. It is with action that we are brought to our potential. Striving for success is the only way to reach it. No one trips and falls into it by accident - even when it may appear that way.

Living a fulfilling life isn't something you wait for... it's something you strive for and work at!

My Sproradic I Want List

Every once in a while you see me type up and publish an I want list... things I'd purchase if money was no object and responsibility wasn't super strong with me...

So here goes it:

1. Rome Blue $275 or a Sierra Crew $199 (With coupon of course)
   
2. New Canon Lens $1000+
3. Kindle $189
4. Caribbean Vacation/ Honeymoon $1500+
5. Ski trips all winter long $XXXX
   

That's about it... they just so happen to be some high ticket items.